i havent been this suicidal in a few months now... been low, but not like this. i just.... i dont even want to try. i dont feel like there is point for me to go on, to try to keep going. I feel that no matter what someone is oging to somehow hurt me, and that im just not the person to live that. im constantly thinking up methods. i think the most humiliating thing though lately is my inability to handle emotions. Im bursting out crying in classes, in front of teachers, and cant seem tog et a grip on it. im the rock. the girl who doesnt cry. this just isnt right. i get mad to.... not like grumpy even, but like i get mad, and then hurt, then feel the ned to isolate.... it just doesnt make sense. i know i should be fighting to try to be around people, and to let out my feelings and talk to someone, but i just dont feel a point....i just want to die. i think suicide is my best option.