Hello,
I sort of joined just to see sort of what people's thoughts were about this. I was hospitalized for suicide about 8 months ago. I'm a 30 year old white male with the basic cookie cutter life. OK job, no real relationships, distant from friends and family, etc. After the hospitalization, everyone panicked and I had to go to intense psycho therapy. There is always this sort of "things will get better" mentality. I took that to heart which kept me alive up to now.
Recently, I just feel like life is pointless. I was going to kill myself over some trouble I fell into at work. After I got caught with the suicide plans, I had to work hard to get out of it. Once it was resolved, things just don't really seem better. I look ahead the next 30-40 years of my life and just figure that there really isn't much of a point.
I'm not depressed about being single, though it doesn't help having a therapist and just society in general pushing it on you. I am overweight and not that attractive (short and balding). I've tried to lose the weight, but it is easy to sabotage yourself.
For the most part, I just see the next decades of life just as slices of going through the motions. I don't really enjoy spending time with others and I'm not too connected with my family or friends anymore. Other things that interest me just seem too bland to care about. At 30 years, I do feel that I have given this a fair try, and I'm not the typical dramatic teenager. I personally feel that my life is pointless...and I don't care about exiting it at this stage.
There is so much emphasis on family and love. I've known forever that I never wanted kids, which appears to be a huge motivator for people my age. Additionally, that kills any relationship along with the difficulty of not being that stellar in the looks department. I'm just sort of sick of breathing and putting up with existence. Does anyone else get this way? Do you think it is ok to just quit (i've done the "it'll get better" try already)?
Later
I sort of joined just to see sort of what people's thoughts were about this. I was hospitalized for suicide about 8 months ago. I'm a 30 year old white male with the basic cookie cutter life. OK job, no real relationships, distant from friends and family, etc. After the hospitalization, everyone panicked and I had to go to intense psycho therapy. There is always this sort of "things will get better" mentality. I took that to heart which kept me alive up to now.
Recently, I just feel like life is pointless. I was going to kill myself over some trouble I fell into at work. After I got caught with the suicide plans, I had to work hard to get out of it. Once it was resolved, things just don't really seem better. I look ahead the next 30-40 years of my life and just figure that there really isn't much of a point.
I'm not depressed about being single, though it doesn't help having a therapist and just society in general pushing it on you. I am overweight and not that attractive (short and balding). I've tried to lose the weight, but it is easy to sabotage yourself.
For the most part, I just see the next decades of life just as slices of going through the motions. I don't really enjoy spending time with others and I'm not too connected with my family or friends anymore. Other things that interest me just seem too bland to care about. At 30 years, I do feel that I have given this a fair try, and I'm not the typical dramatic teenager. I personally feel that my life is pointless...and I don't care about exiting it at this stage.
There is so much emphasis on family and love. I've known forever that I never wanted kids, which appears to be a huge motivator for people my age. Additionally, that kills any relationship along with the difficulty of not being that stellar in the looks department. I'm just sort of sick of breathing and putting up with existence. Does anyone else get this way? Do you think it is ok to just quit (i've done the "it'll get better" try already)?
Later