AHHHHH I don't care what you think I don't have an eatting disorder. Why are we always talking about this. Why do you give a crap if I eat or don't, or throw up or not? Why do you bring it up to my workers? Why do you feel the need to lecture me? If I had an eatting disorder I would be skinny! I am not going to the hospital. I don't care how sucidal I am. I am sick and tired of it. There is no point all they do is through meds at the problem and alot of good that has done. Why do I feel like everyone is mad at me. Have I really done that much to tick you all off? Why can't I get it. Why Why Why? What is wrong with me? Logically I know everything you are telling me is true. Emotionally I don't feel it. Why can't I just get over it all ready? I know I shouldn't be hurting myself I do I get it. I am so angry at mysel!. I can't cope with all this stuff right now I just can't. Why am I such a bad friend? Why didn't I just answer the phone the other day? Why did it take me so long to call you back? I am so sorry he did that to you. I should have been there with you in the hospital. I can't handle anymore. I can't cope. My whole world is crashing down, and I am standing in the middle of it. I feel so unable to cope with my own life. I am falling to pieces and I feel helpless. I know I should take it on mintue at a time but I can't. Yes I know that I am obsessive about cleaning, counting, germs and my teeth. Why can't I say what hurts so bad on the inside. Yes I know if it was my daughter that was going through all this that I would give her diffrent advice. OMG I just can't cope with this anymore. I just want it all to stop!!