thats what i keep telling myself "just end it, just do it, just do it" repeating over and over well tomorrow im gunna go to town get what i need, find a nice place where no one will find me for a while and do it. The only reason ive lived this long was my gf she was that last thread keeping me alive but the weight of the emotional pain is too much and the thread snapped today. My emotional pain is bad enough i cant stop thinking about it then get horrible headaches that dont go away all day. Every day i think about doing it no matter how great the day is the same thoughts keep coming back ... how can i do it with the items in this room, when can i do it, if i do it who would actually care, would anyone in this room try to save me? I hate myself for having these thoughts for no good reason especially on good days. This time ill do it right i didnt tell anyone i was doing it so no1 can tell my parents.