I have not been on here for a long time, but if you read some of my old threads you could see how bad my situation and mindset was. Also have advice on how I overcame it near the end
https://www.suicideforum.com/commun...-almost-every-single-day.163291/#post-2125740
From April 2, 2020
"I am so sick and fed up with feeling like total crap nearly every day for the past 5 years
And no I am not complaining without doing anything about it"
This was my life BEFORE (when I had mental illness)
-Slept over 10 hours a day, would sleep as late as 4am, and wake up at 4pm
-No job
-109 kilograms in weight pure fat
-Too lazy to shave or apply for jobs (was unemployed)
-Daily suicidal thoughts/depressive episodes
-Would take illegal drugs every single week, and would panic if i could not get them as I had to rely on them just to feel okay
-Terrible anxiety where I could not even go to a supermarket or crowded place without a panic attack
-Life was meaningless, nothing to look forward to
Now, 8 months later
-I have a steady sleeping schedule, wake up around 9am and hit the gym for at least 1-2 hours, 6 days a week
-I have a part time job, regularly applying hoping to find a full time job
-More energetic and sociable, I love going out now and feel more confident
-I no longer feel depressed or suicidal. Only two depressive episodes the past few months (one was when I drank alcohol)
-I no longer take drugs to self medicate. I drink alcohol but I limit myself and drink on special occasions
-I enjoy life now and look forward to meeting new people, making good memories with existing friends, trying out different sports and hobbies
How I overcame my depression and anxiety
-Take tiny steps at a time.
-I started by fixing my sleep. Every week I would aim to sleep 30 minutes earlier, and eventually i woke up early and made it a habit
-Medication - I found Zoloft to be the most effective, but have tried many others such as Lexapro which didn't really help. I started on a low dose then upped it to 2 dosages a day until i no longer felt i needed them
-Exercise. This one is extremely hard but extremely important. I started by going to the gym once every 2 days, and lifted the lightest weight possible and did bare minimum effort. As I started to lose weight, I gained more energy and felt less tired. Eventually I started to put in more effort and I found that lifting and exercising did wonders for my mood, as high intensity exercises releases feel good chemicals and endorphins to the brain.
-Socialising. If you have good friends, always reach out, talk to them, hang out with them etc. If you don't have friends, maybe just talk to a stranger if you have the courage, or socialise in forums like this. Otherwise you will feel lonely and with depression, loneliness makes it worse.
-Meditation. I meditated 2 minutes a day for a week, increased it to 5, then 10 etc until I did at least 30 minutes a day. I no longer meditate that much but try to do it once in a while because I don't feel sad anymore
-Drugs/ alcohol - My advice is to stay away from drugs, they relieve your symptoms for maybe a few hours, and you feel 10x worse the next day and your brain will be messed up long term. Also cut back on alcohol. I used to drink a lot to numb the pain but all it did was push it away so that it comes back worse
MOST IMPORTANTLY - Changing your mindset and trying to think positive - This is hard, as a depressed person always tends to view the world in a negative light and focuses on the negatives. Every day I kept saying to myself life is meaningless I want to die etc. But i trained my mind slowly, my mind was a dark awful place, but now I am more positive and happy.
I really hope the best for you guys, as I know how hard mental health is.
Thank you to everyone who had replied to my threads in the past, especially the kind moderators and staff who also assisted. This forum is awesome best of luck to you all
https://www.suicideforum.com/commun...-almost-every-single-day.163291/#post-2125740
From April 2, 2020
"I am so sick and fed up with feeling like total crap nearly every day for the past 5 years
And no I am not complaining without doing anything about it"
This was my life BEFORE (when I had mental illness)
-Slept over 10 hours a day, would sleep as late as 4am, and wake up at 4pm
-No job
-109 kilograms in weight pure fat
-Too lazy to shave or apply for jobs (was unemployed)
-Daily suicidal thoughts/depressive episodes
-Would take illegal drugs every single week, and would panic if i could not get them as I had to rely on them just to feel okay
-Terrible anxiety where I could not even go to a supermarket or crowded place without a panic attack
-Life was meaningless, nothing to look forward to
Now, 8 months later
-I have a steady sleeping schedule, wake up around 9am and hit the gym for at least 1-2 hours, 6 days a week
-I have a part time job, regularly applying hoping to find a full time job
-More energetic and sociable, I love going out now and feel more confident
-I no longer feel depressed or suicidal. Only two depressive episodes the past few months (one was when I drank alcohol)
-I no longer take drugs to self medicate. I drink alcohol but I limit myself and drink on special occasions
-I enjoy life now and look forward to meeting new people, making good memories with existing friends, trying out different sports and hobbies
How I overcame my depression and anxiety
-Take tiny steps at a time.
-I started by fixing my sleep. Every week I would aim to sleep 30 minutes earlier, and eventually i woke up early and made it a habit
-Medication - I found Zoloft to be the most effective, but have tried many others such as Lexapro which didn't really help. I started on a low dose then upped it to 2 dosages a day until i no longer felt i needed them
-Exercise. This one is extremely hard but extremely important. I started by going to the gym once every 2 days, and lifted the lightest weight possible and did bare minimum effort. As I started to lose weight, I gained more energy and felt less tired. Eventually I started to put in more effort and I found that lifting and exercising did wonders for my mood, as high intensity exercises releases feel good chemicals and endorphins to the brain.
-Socialising. If you have good friends, always reach out, talk to them, hang out with them etc. If you don't have friends, maybe just talk to a stranger if you have the courage, or socialise in forums like this. Otherwise you will feel lonely and with depression, loneliness makes it worse.
-Meditation. I meditated 2 minutes a day for a week, increased it to 5, then 10 etc until I did at least 30 minutes a day. I no longer meditate that much but try to do it once in a while because I don't feel sad anymore
-Drugs/ alcohol - My advice is to stay away from drugs, they relieve your symptoms for maybe a few hours, and you feel 10x worse the next day and your brain will be messed up long term. Also cut back on alcohol. I used to drink a lot to numb the pain but all it did was push it away so that it comes back worse
MOST IMPORTANTLY - Changing your mindset and trying to think positive - This is hard, as a depressed person always tends to view the world in a negative light and focuses on the negatives. Every day I kept saying to myself life is meaningless I want to die etc. But i trained my mind slowly, my mind was a dark awful place, but now I am more positive and happy.
I really hope the best for you guys, as I know how hard mental health is.
Thank you to everyone who had replied to my threads in the past, especially the kind moderators and staff who also assisted. This forum is awesome best of luck to you all