You must be so exhausted. Taking care of a loved one can be all consuming. You are very sweet to want to take care of your brother yourself, but you are burnt out and sounds like you need some TLC for yourself. If you can arrange for his care, please don't feel guilty. It's okay to take a break to take care of you. You need love too. You need caring after too. Make sure you arrange for someone else to take care of your brother and you take care of yourself. Please take a day off & go do something you enjoy doing~