After wasting two weeks in hospital i've decided that I have no other option but to terminate my life early. I know exactly what to do so I have no problems method wise. I guess i'm just worried how my family and friends will cope with me committing suicide. I've tried everything - therapy, medication, being in hospital and nothing works. I suppose, for whatever reason, I was meant to do this. If God does exist then surely he'd have kept me in hospital where I was safe, not throw me back into the community where i'm left alone with my thoughts and impulses. It's a scary world and I just can't cope with it anymore.