And boy howdy, for curing a bad mood, nothing beats it. I was EXTREMELY pissed off about nothing in particular, and was this close to posting a very angry and vitriolic message, the nature of which would almost certainly have gotten me banned. That's right, a forum suicide on the Suicide Forum. But I held off, and instead, I turned off all the lights, locked my door, ran to my bed, and cried like a little girl. While I'm not feeling entirely better, at least I can see straight and I no longer feel like making an enemy of this forum out of sheer spite. There's definitely a therapeutic effect to crying. But a couple of things worry me: first, that I was feeling impulsive enough to consider writing such a message in the first place. I've always had a fairly level head for those kinds of things, and I've never come this close to just completely losing it before. And second, that was more crying all at once than I've done in years. It was audible. I had to bury my face in my pillow to avoid waking up the whole house. I've been gently crying almost nightly for the last year or so, but never like this. I'm afraid it's getting worse. I'm losing control, and losing hope by the day.