Just keep giving up

Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by JigsawJohn, Sep 19, 2012.

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  1. JigsawJohn

    JigsawJohn Well-Known Member

    I don't know what I want with this post... cause no one's words are helping right now. It's like I'm falling apart by just existing. The stuff in my head that I thought led me to this misery is nothing compared to what my soul is carrying. I don't think anyone will ever understand... but I've been here before, gone through this before. I've lost most of my ancient memories, but I know when I say this is too much. But I fear that if I kill myself I'll only end up playing this stupid game again and again and again. I'm lost in between, and I can't get out. Some part of me knows that I'll have to find a way to kill not only my body, but my old soul with it. There's so many layers of me and it never ends, I always find new layers and every time that happens it's like I both gain a piece of my soul as it also rips a piece off. I've lost my will to live so many times, I'm starting to think that I never had a will to live. I just don't see how I possibly could ever gain that will. It just feels so hopeless.
     
  2. NYJmpMaster

    NYJmpMaster Have a question? Message Me Staff Member Forum Owner ADMIN

    I am not familiar with the specifics of your individual belief system but typically inevitability is in no way part of the process - that is the point - the cycle continues until you choose to break it. That alone would give me pause to consider what would be the possible gain of suicide....
     
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