6 months ago my friend attempted suicide, I wouldn't call her a friend, she was more of a soul mate without the "mushy" stuff. She was all I had, she took the place of my mother and father who have never been there for me, my dad is abusive while my mother has been dead for 12 years. The world feels so empty without her. I miss her so much. The problem is I have no idea if she's alright, she was out of state visiting her father when she attempted suicide. I've talked to her parents a few times, they have always had a problem with me. I made it very clear that I was only there for their daughters friendship, and she meant the world to me. They thought our friendship was unhealthy, so we struggled to stay in contact while she was out of state. Anyways, I was in school when her mother called me and informed me of my friends attempt. They told me many times, over the internet, and to my face that it is my fault. That she never has had any depression until she met me. They hate me. Many times this friend told me that I've helped her grow as a person and that without me she had no idea where she would be, and that she's been fighting depression since she was a child. So it's been 6 months and her parents will not inform me of her condition, her mother told me "She's in a better place now, she's happy." But that makes it sound like she's dead. It's a horrible feeling not knowing how she is. Out of anger her step mother told me that my friend said I was a mistake, that I was a horrible person and that she wish she never met me. That's fine, I know I am. But I can't imagine this friend saying that! I don't know what to believe. 2 weeks after her attempt I ended up trying myself. It's just been getting worse and I know if I continue down this path I won't be around much longer. I'm sorry it's not very organized, I'm not the best at writing down my feelings but that's the story.