so fucking lonely, its driving me nuts every evening, every night its so much harder than other times of the day have worked and tried so hard to be "better" i end up back at this place. hurt, sad, empty, overwhelmed, anxious, worried and alone. how to face this every day? the same thing? the emptiness? the pain? the wanting to control emotions in unhealthy ways? i know its not right. if nothing works though, what choice do i have? what future can there be? im getting worked up about myself. angry with myself and with everything. i realize it makes no sense but its how i feel. i just miss this person, so much. i dont feel like me, something is missing. and anyone and everyone seems to have forgotten. well they did that shortly after the burial. how the fuck can i keep going? i dont have any clue.