Hi, I'm new to the forums. I lost my job about six months ago, and it's been really stressful looking for work since moving to a new area with my boyfriend. I've looked everywhere I can, and I'm really trying my hardest to find something. But, it's just driving me crazy that I can't find anything, and to make matters worse, my boyfriend is getting on my ass everyday about it. I'm not sure what he wants me to do, I'm doing all that I can, considering, he won't let me borrow the car, and there is no public transportation in my area, I don't have too many friends, so I can't really get a "hook up" anywhere. I'm just so sick of getting rejected by everything, and his constant mean spirited comments and negativity is not keeping me positive about this. I don't have anyone to talk to about this, he doesn't listen and none of my friends get it. I feel terrible, I wake up every morning feeling like a complete failure, and I can't help it. I don't wanna be sad, and when I feel down about the situation, my boyfriend just says I'm pouting and hollers at me. I'm so miserable, since I havent been working, it's like walking on eggshells, I feel like I can't do anything without being yelled at, since he's the only source of income right now, it's like he's supporting me, so , I don't ask for anything, I'd rather starve to death than ask him for any kind of money. When I am kind of enjoying something, he totally ruins it. I've gone in the hospital before for depression, and the way things are now, I feel like I should check myself in once more, I'm so tired. I am absolutely miserable, I constantly think some black hole just swallowing me and just not even existing anymore. I hate my life.