Dear someone, I feel so lost, not sure what to do. Frankly, I have no fucking clue what to do. I can't drop out, quit, now. Not after all this effort I've been putting into this. I know I've screwed up a fair bit, especially during first period. But I hadn't done anything education-wise for about 4 years! Of course I needed to get into the swing of things, so to say! The whole friends-thing isn't helping either. I don't know the girls from the footy team well enough yet to really see them as friends, and they're all quite a bit younger than me as well, and (this may sound rather stuck-up, but I don't mean it like that, it's just the way it is) their level of intelligence is just different from mine which makes it hard sometimes. My friends from work, they've been the ones I've seen most over the last few years, but eversince I went back to uni, I feel like I've been slowly disconnected from them, because I'm so busy and barely have any time any more. They are more my age (most of them anyway) and they 'get' me. They know I have gloomy periods, they know about mum, and how much that still affects me at times. They know me. and I love them so much. I just really miss them. The people at uni, they're really nice, and there's a group I hang out with a lot, but they're all a tad younger than me, which is okay, but they're also so smart! They get good grades, they're intelligent.. I feel like they're out of my league. I'm so disconnected from the world, it's like I'm at this really lonely little island now. I don't like this feeling. And I Haven't even started about my physical condition, and how that affects me these days. I'm lost. And quite frankly, coming on here doesn't make me feel less lonely these days. I used to go into chat and feel less lonely. These days it only worsens the feeling, seems like nobody cares anymore. Is it that bad to just need and want a bit of attention now and then?