Things have been really great for me for the last 3 and a bit months. My last med change was like magic and made such a massive difference. I've got a great therapist and i got to go overseas for a holiday. I feel very lucky at the moment, like things are finally starting to come together.
I say all that because i don't want to sound ungrateful, and i want to recognise all the positive things that i have going on in my life.
But i'm lonely and i feel like i am in a fairly consistent state of missing someone. It's like a broken heart, not the kind that makes you feel like there is no point in living, but a sense of something not feeling quite right. A dull but consuming ache that makes me wince when i recognise its presence.
Most of my friends live in different time zones and i rarely get to talk to them or they have commitments which i respect need to come first.
I am that desperate for affection or anything that resembles love.
I wish i had to stregth to be on my own. And i probably would if i gave myself the chance.
Anyway i just needed to vent a little :rolleyes:
I say all that because i don't want to sound ungrateful, and i want to recognise all the positive things that i have going on in my life.
But i'm lonely and i feel like i am in a fairly consistent state of missing someone. It's like a broken heart, not the kind that makes you feel like there is no point in living, but a sense of something not feeling quite right. A dull but consuming ache that makes me wince when i recognise its presence.
Most of my friends live in different time zones and i rarely get to talk to them or they have commitments which i respect need to come first.
I am that desperate for affection or anything that resembles love.
I wish i had to stregth to be on my own. And i probably would if i gave myself the chance.
Anyway i just needed to vent a little :rolleyes:
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