I see that a lot of people on this site have some very serious problems. I hope for peace of mind for you all and I don't want to detract from that at all, but I'd like some affirmation if possible. At this point in my life I don't think that I could kill myself, I just consider it a larger possibility than in the past and it frightens me. I'm about to graduate from college and I have absolutely no direction in my life. I have no idea what I'm going to do after school and I never feel like I'm doing enough. My mother recently cut me out of her life and I was completely dependent on her for emotional and monetary support. I have no transportation, no place to live after school, no plans, and barely enough money to survive for now. Right now I am typing in a public library after being dismissed from a crucial test for grad school. I was nervous and filled out two answers after the testing time had stopped. Preparation for that test was all that I did for the last few months of my life and I feel completely hollow knowing I failed it. Right now I feel stupid, alone and worthless. My only role in life now is student, so what am I if I fail at this simple task? I don't see any future for myself so the prospect of cutting my life short really appeals to me. There is a man next to me staring at everything that I type, how worthless must I appear to him and everyone else in my life? There are a few people that I can turn to, and for that I'm grateful. I'm still on speaking terms with my father and I have a few friends and a loving relationship. I'm just not the kind of person to bother other people with my trivialities, though I perhaps should. I know that I'm lucky enough to have people in my life, I just don't want to bother any of them. I know that my situation doesn't match the severity of anyone else's here, but if anyone could give me any direction or support, I'd greatly appreciate it and I'd be happy to reciprocate. I thought that maybe people at a similar walk of life would be the best people to ask about it. I'm at my breaking point and I'm afraid of what may come next.