the reason you feel alone is because you probably are. No one is feeling like shit like you are. I know im feeling like shit all the time. I just try to get through the day cause i have children that need me. I notice alot of times when im with my wife or people that are my friends. they arent really hearing what im saying. they just laugh and then start to say something. to everyone it is a big party. and to me life sucks. I have maybe one person that actually listens to what I say and she is on the other side of the world and i get to talk to her via email. friends that listen are hard to find. they are to busy talking and having their own problems to make you feel any better. So eric talk to people at this forum, cause we are going through some major shit in our lives. we dont know what you are going through. But we know that we feel shitty and alone alot, so at least we can be alone together. peace,,,,,, a friend,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, Jason