I'm twenty years old. I'm not legal to drink. I'm not legal to go to specific clubs. n' I can't do a lot of things. This doesn't mean that I'm upset about it. I'm just saying. But, lately I've been drinking. Not heavily...but I haven't really told anyone. I don't like to drink because I become uber depressed days later...but I've been drinking...n' I don't know why. I may have been depressed before hand...but, I don't really know what to do about it. I'm ashamed. I spout all this stuff about how I hate when my Mom drinks n' stuff...yet I'm turning into her. I have a lot of willpower. I have the ability to say no. I just don't know why I'm doing what I'm doing. Sometimes I really hate myself.