I sit at this computer sometimes, and I just feel nothing, cant think straight. I dont know if its boredom, but theres just nothing for me anymore. Can you guys relate, that sometimes, for no real reason your just permanently tired? I look into the future..and I have absolutely nothing to look forward too, only death at the end of it. You see all these people chatting away on myspace or whatever and its 99% white noise, its all pointless, aimless, mostly stupid conversation...I doubt anyone is making any real connections on there with other people. Do these sites work for you guys..I think im too old now. Old and afraid of what might come of it. Im getting to the point where I have two decisions..top myself, and get it over and done with, or go see somebody. I know I should take the latter option but fear is just stopping me, fear and laziness. Its like im a cacoon that I cant break out of...and then If I do see someone I have to explain it at a time when my parents, particularly my mother, thought that I was over this. I just want to run away from it all..but dont even have the energy for that. Its never ended for me. 33 years of this shit, and it just never ends.