It's weird to call it "one of those days", because its probably not usually in peoples daily life that you really don't feel like living anymore. I really like this forum. You can post how you feel, without feeling judged. Without feeling you're always overreacting. You can express your sadness, and it's okay if nobody reads or replies to it. Nobody to tell you "just suck it up", nobody to give you the look "Oh she's sad AGAIN?". Today I'm having a really emotional day. Sitting in the train, trying to hold in my tears and just thinking.. I'm tired. So tired. Mostly tired of myself. Just can't enjoy life the way I want to. It always feel like I am walking with a chain on my ankles and wrists, pulling me down. And the chain is my dark self. It wants me to worry about the littlest things that don't matter, creating negative thoughts that I won't be missed if I just leave, the "I'm better off alone" thought. I really try to fight but I just can't. Feel like crying my eyes out and just stop living. Self pity is tiring.. Anyways, thank you if you've read my story for today. I just really needed to get it off my chest ^^ have a nice sunday everyone!