I've been dealing with my feelings of low self-worth since I was a teen. I turned 40 last month and I am just so tired. I have been to sooooo many psychiatrists and counselors trying to find my way through life I have lost two jobs from this and I am on the verge of losing a third. My contributions to my home have just been getting less and less over the years. I earn almost no money now and I don't do any housework any more. I cancel camping trips because I don't want to spend the energy to get everything ready and I rarely get the lawn mowed before its incredibly long. I just keep wearing down, getting less and less effective, like a toy whose batteries are getting weak. I just don't want to put the effort in anymore.