I actually grew up with thoughts of suicide starting when I was about 10 or so, but I always knew I'd never do it. Especially after losing an uncle to suicide. But now I'm in an unhappy marriage (non violent.. Just unhappy) and it's causing me severe anxiety. I haven't eaten or slept properly in days. It's really starting to take a toll on me... Today I locked myself in my bedroom and then went into my bathroom and locked that door and thought "if I <mod edit - methods>, I'll be dead before my husband even realized I'm not sitting next to him in the living room." What a terrifying thought! In just tired of being 22 and trapped in this marriage.