I have been thinking about this. It probably wont make any sence at all but I wanted to get it out there and see what everyone thinks.. Im badly overweight. Its mainly genetics and low blood sugar making me at like a horse! But maybe theres something mental involved? Maybe I eat to punish myself because if I keep eating everything I get my hands on I will just grow and grow - which depresses me because I have no self esteem and actually get sick when I see myself in the mirror. Am I subconciously punishing myself? Maybe Im trying to protect myself? If Im fat and ugly no one will want me (sexual abuse/ect). But I want to be thin so desperatly. I try to diet but dont loose much until I give up and gain even more. I pray to be anorexic someday soon (sorry to those who go thru anorexia - I dont mean anything bad, I know its not a good thing to deal with but Im so badly wanting to be pretty). Whats up with me.. Is it pure sugar problems or am I punishing me without knowing it?