Hi Haven't been here for a few months. Feeling pretty good at the mo. I just had a quick read of my private diary from about 6 months ago.....and good lord there is some nasty, scary stuff in there - I can't believe that it was me that wrote it! All sorts of stuff about wanting to die and not being able to carry on etc etc. I recall feeling pretty wretched, but I had no idea it was that bad! Goes to show I suppose, these things pass. If I had 'done the deed', I would have lost out on loads of cool stuff I have done over the last few months.