Im having serious depression problems. and suicidal thoughts. I just want to die, I would just like to see if anyone really did care. my whole family hates me for being gay. coming out to them was so hard, and they dont care about me anymore. So what do I do? I turn to drugs. first pot now ive been doing pills [Kilonopins, Xanax] and Drinking. Im only 16 and have so much depression. Can anyone give me one good reason to live? btw, Im new here.