Hi, I am new to this. I have been suffering from depression since I was 7 years old and I have been to a barrage of different doctors and taken copious different medications. None of them ever did a darn thing for me. Things have just been consistently getting worse. Everyday is a struggle just to leave the house. I have to bribe myself saying "well if today doesn't go okay then you will never have to leave the house" or something along those lines. My boyfriend does not understand he thinks that there is some magical "off" switch that I can flip and just be okay. I am so sick of everything. I can't seem to find the point of life. Why work hard, gain an education, build a family, accumulate wealth just to grow old and lose control of all of your faculties then die. It seems pointless to me. I would much rather skip all that nonsense and just be done now.