sorry havent been on here in forever. miss everyone lots but i dont have internet so i cant come on ofter. just real sad today. feel like crying all the time. dont know why. everything is going ok.guess im just worried. dont even know who ill be working for tomorrow or next week or if ill even have a job. everythings going to shit for the company i work for. its the only "real" job ive ever had. its all i know. wish i could still talk to my friends here but i cant even do that. just under allot of pressure. dont know what i'll do. what if my company goes under and there arent any other jobs? i know there are people allot worse off than me and i shouldnt be complaining but just so down right now.