I literally have no one in my life that I feel a connection with. I do not have that one person or anyone for that matter that says "glad to see you", "I have missed you", "I am happy you are here", etc, and I am 34 years old. I have no hope in my life I feel hopeless, I have absolutely nothing to look forward to, I have lost all passion for anything that I did have. I have felt this way for years now, and the pain from the loneliness and everything just hurts so bad, so I ask myself why should I continue to put myself through this. I am not trying to sound angry, but please do not give me the ol' "you never know what tomorrow brings" garbage, because I do know...for the last 4-5 years it has brought me more and more grief taking me one step closer to suicide. Am I supposed to keep waiting for that one day, while at the same time as I wait I suffer more and more. It is just not worth it. I am at the point of not being sad, but being angry and ready to end it all. I ask myself what in the world did I do to deserve this, what did I do to deserve to feel this way. I am a good person, that is the only positive thing in my life I know of.