I can't get the thoughts of suicide out of my head. I am so scared I might act on it on impulse or in a state of mental instability which I have frequently. My depression gets worse every day. Nights and mornings are just absolute mental agony, I don't know how much longer I can take it. I hate waking up. My life is just a worthless mess, I have so much guilt and remorse. I feel like such a coward, I really hate myself. I am paralyzed by fear and accomplish nothing. My head hurts so much it feels like it could explode from stress and pressure. Anxiety runs through my entire body like an electrical current. There is just too much, it is all so hopeless.