Just so tired and sick of it.

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by HomerSimpson, Jul 29, 2008.

  1. HomerSimpson

    HomerSimpson Well-Known Member

    I am just so tired and sick of life. I have been suicidal and depressed for years. I am so tired of being literally alone, so tired of having no one, so tired of not having anything to look forward to, so tired of going to bed and knowing I will wake up to nothing. It hurts so bad I just want to die. The last three months have been the worst of my life. It has been brought on by trying to help the only person that I feel connected to in my life. She has been in a verbally abusive, violent as in throwing things marriage for at least 17 years. She finally got the courage to leave, but after only two months she went back. She met him when she was 15 and he was 25, her father left her when she was young so to her her husband is a father figure. She had admitted time and time again she does not love him, but it is the right thing to do because her pastor said one day she may learn to love him. She was and is the only bright spot in my other wise depressed and suicidal life, but afrer all of this I feel like I am losing her. I am just so sick of living life, that now it is not if but when I will kill myself.
     
  2. odnox

    odnox Well-Known Member

    Homer, I'm giving you an amen. I know exactly how you're feeling and it does hurt... a lot. I don't know, that I know, what to do to feel better, but hopefully knowing someone else understands will help.

    Your heart being constantly twisted in knots. And I don't know that the women are doing anything on purpose to hurt us, we're just caught in their drama.

    Dude, do I understand! But I don't want to die for someone who doesn't deserve my death.

    Hang in there, Homer, in time it will get a little better.
     
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  3. HomerSimpson

    HomerSimpson Well-Known Member

    I quit believing that lie a long time ago.
     
  4. odnox

    odnox Well-Known Member

    OK, sorry. I do hope you can find peace and some happiness though.
     
  5. HomerSimpson

    HomerSimpson Well-Known Member

    No dont apologize, I just dont have any hope.