Just another day feeling like a completely worthless idiot. I feel like i don't deserve anyone in my life, i felt so anxious in morning and raged to mom and now i feel so guilty and so bad . When i get angry i tend to hurt people and i feel so shamed for it. Also i feel like i never belong to anywhere.. My social anxiety just keeps holding me down, makes it hard to talk to anyone. I just wish to die but i can't do that cause i have things to be grateful for. I have been just crying until my eyes are read and just wishing for something to relieve this pain. I can't get any understanding from my family, all they keep saying is "Just think of positive things!", "Don't be alone then if you feel lonely", " Stop whining, we got problems too" etc.. Yes, i know they are trying to help and i appreciate their efforts but i usually feel even worse after those words. I want someone to just tell me i am not a bad person as i feel i am.