Just soo tired

[Daze&Confused]

I've been sitting here for the last few hours,reading the posts. Can't think straight, my head hurts. I came here to help, but i can't.I thought if i could help someone, anyone, then maybe there was hope for me. Everything i say means nothing. I can't help anyone. I'm fucking socially awkward online and in real life. WTF is wrong with me.

I felt soo much better this morning, was actually looking forward to the week ahead. But it dissapeared as quickly as it came, and now it's back. That feeling of utter futility.

I don't want to die, i doubt if most people really do, i just want to escape, from my head and my heart.

I don't know what i expected, health care proffessionals couldn't help me, why did i think anyone else could.

Please don't reply to this with a smiley hugs, i really fucking hate that, it's like patting you on the head and saying "there,there".
If you got nothing useful to say then please keep your empty platitudes to yourself. Time dosn't heal all wounds.

Sorry guys not having a go at you, i just feel so fucking useless.

 

[pix]

hello
i have similar feelings
i feel meaningless and awkard, and whenever im not its just a front. i have someone that says they love me, but i cant understand why.it seems pointless, but at the same time, im willing to give myself time, as i feel i may as well, there could be something else more then just these dull emotions.
if others can find something else in life, why shouldnt we?

 

[pix]

hello
i have similar feelings
i feel meaningless and awkard, and whenever im not its just a front. i have someone that says they love me, but i cant understand why.it seems pointless, but at the same time, im willing to give myself time, as i feel i may as well, there could be something else more then just these dull emotions.
if others can find something else in life, why shouldnt we?

 

[perry_mason]

Please don't reply to this with a smiley hugs, i really fucking hate that, it's like patting you on the head and saying "there,there".

lol, im glad you dared to say that - i feel that same way about those silly little hug picture things but didnt dare comment on them!

anyway, more seriously, dont beat yourself up over not being able to help people, that doesnt make you useless. live for yourself and anyway people will probably just be happy that you are about even if you are not helping or anything.

you say you want to escape from your head and heart. is there anything in particular that makes you want to 'escape'? if so i would try and confront it head on if at all possible.