For the disease, for you having to go through this. I'd take it instead if I could. For our failing relationship. It saddens me the most. For currently being unable to make you happy. For you not realizing your comments hurt deeply and bring back unwanted memories. I should tell you, but I can't as it would hurt you and in turn be given back to me as guilt. For having less patience than I should. While I simply cannot comprehend your thoughts, I do try to see things from your perspective. Sometimes I fail. I apologize for this and a lit more, but you already know what its like having me looking after you. I am sorry for letting you down and being unable to cope adequately at times. Please help me help you. Accept help, talk to those who can help. Please stop questioning all I say or do. Please lets try to come together peacefully during your last months on earth.