just sorry

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by MoAnamCara, Jun 14, 2011.

  1. MoAnamCara

    MoAnamCara SF Artist

    For the disease, for you having to go through this. I'd take it instead if I could.

    For our failing relationship. It saddens me the most.

    For currently being unable to make you happy.

    For you not realizing your comments hurt deeply and bring back unwanted memories. I should tell you, but I can't as it would hurt you and in turn be given back to me as guilt.

    For having less patience than I should. While I simply cannot comprehend your thoughts, I do try to see things from your perspective. Sometimes I fail.

    I apologize for this and a lit more, but you already know what its like having me looking after you.

    I am sorry for letting you down and being unable to cope adequately at times.

    Please help me help you. Accept help, talk to those who can help. Please stop questioning all I say or do.

    Please lets try to come together peacefully during your last months on earth.
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  2. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Im sorry you are suffering so hun and feeling not understood hugs to yo u
  3. MoAnamCara

    MoAnamCara SF Artist

    thanks TE, I try to remember this path wasn't chosen by us and we both are affected but in different ways. Some days are just tough, makes for over emotional and fragile souls.

    Take care.
  4. icequeen

    icequeen Well-Known Member

    i just know how you feel. dont beat yourself up. sending you a cyberhug

  5. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

  6. MoAnamCara

    MoAnamCara SF Artist

    Thank you both so very much.
  7. *sparkle*

    *sparkle* Staff Alumni

    just wanted to send you some :hug: s and thoughts your way
  8. MoAnamCara

    MoAnamCara SF Artist

    And thank you too for taking the time to do so. I hope today is a positive one for you.
  9. starryeyed

    starryeyed Well-Known Member

    I think you have amazing patience.dont be tough on yourself.
    Youre a good person and just keep telling yourself that.
  10. MoAnamCara

    MoAnamCara SF Artist

    Thanks Starryeyed

    I don't believe myself!!! No matter how I try to persuade my inner self that I'm doing the best I can. We all struggle with feeling like we are good enough, doing enough etc. I suppose.