2 nights ago I was really stressed out and I remembered how people talked about how cutting yourself could releive stress. At that point I was pretty much up for anything and I remembered I had an exacto knife(razor knife) somwhere so I found it and made a small cut on my hand and after that I whent to my arm and each time made a longer and deeper cut. Afterwards I felt suprisingly relieved, I was thinking "whoa! This stuff actually works!" I wear long sleave sweathsirts just about everyday so no one will ever see the cuts I made, I think 25 in all and I didn't particularly feel like dying that day so I avoided my wrists and instead focused on my upper and lower left arm. By the time I was done my entire arm was completely covered in blood and no one was home so I just let it bleed while I walked around the house. Seeing my own blood was incredibely soothing and now I have no reason to criticize people who cut themselves like I use to becuase now I know how relieving it is. Just wanted to share my realization.