my brother told me to go and kill myself. more than once. over an over. :cry: i want to. i just its so hard to even think right now i am trying to not even think about any sort of way to harm myself because if i start thinking about it then i am almost positive that i will. i dont know how to stop these feelings. i try so hard i am trying hard i just dont know how long i can last. :sad: i am sorry for being weak right now i shouldnt even post this. sorry. tourniquet by evanescence just started playing on my itunes :dry: i am sorry.