Just stop breathing.

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by SmilePretty, Sep 2, 2007.

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  1. SmilePretty

    SmilePretty Staff Alumni

    my brother told me to go and kill myself. more than once. over an over. :cry: i want to.
    i just
    its so hard to even think right now
    i am trying to not even think about any sort of way to harm myself because if i start thinking about it then i am almost positive that i will. i dont know how to stop these feelings. i try so hard

    i am trying hard

    i just dont know how long i can last.

    :sad:

    i am sorry for being weak right now


    i shouldnt even post this.

    sorry.


    tourniquet by evanescence just started playing on my itunes :dry:


    i am sorry.
     
  2. Spearmint

    Spearmint Well-Known Member

    Lucy...:sad:
    :hug: :hug: :hug:
    You are strong, you can make it through this..
    There's no need for you to apologize. You aren't being weak at all.
     
  3. SmilePretty

    SmilePretty Staff Alumni

    yes i am

    :sad:

    i cant take this anymore.
     
  4. Spearmint

    Spearmint Well-Known Member

    You are not being weak, at all.
    :sad: Lucy..Ugh..I don't know what to say to you..I empathize, so much..
     
  5. SmilePretty

    SmilePretty Staff Alumni

    there really isnt anything left to say.

    my brother is right.
     
  6. Spearmint

    Spearmint Well-Known Member

    Your brother isn't right..Not at all.
     
  7. daripa85

    daripa85 Member

    your brother is probably just angry about something and doesn't mean what he says. don't give up.
     
  8. SmilePretty

    SmilePretty Staff Alumni

    considering that he beats the shit out of me....well yeah he is angry

    he hates me though.

    he means it.
     
  9. Spearmint

    Spearmint Well-Known Member

    Lucy, call Ryan? :unsure: Talk to him?
     
  10. daripa85

    daripa85 Member

    then just call the police and get him out of there.
     
  11. SmilePretty

    SmilePretty Staff Alumni

    i am talking to ryan via aim

    he is pissed at my brother now.

    i am not calling the cops.
     
  12. resistance

    resistance Staff Alumni

    Your brother is wrong. He was taking out his frustration on you and when we're angry, sometimes we say things in the heat of the moment that we don't mean. What your brother said was way out of order and must have been so hurtful, try and disregard it because you SHOULDN'T kill yourself. Don't listen to him, ok? You're not being weak at all. Take care of yourself hun.
     
  13. SmilePretty

    SmilePretty Staff Alumni

    i cant just disregard this.
     
  14. Spearmint

    Spearmint Well-Known Member

    Lucy, don't listen to him, he's not right. :sad: Stay safe, please..
     
  15. SmilePretty

    SmilePretty Staff Alumni

    :( i'll try
     
  16. resistance

    resistance Staff Alumni

    You shouldn't have to put up with this shit. He has no right to lay his hands on you and beat you and stuff. Can't you tell anyone about this? Don't let his bullying ways convince you that you're worth nothing. You're worth more than this, why can't you phone the police? If your brother treats you with such disrespect and there's nothing you can do, you are best out of that environment hun for your own sake, both physically and mentally because I don't want him to drag you down so far you believe everything he says and believe you deserve this, because that's untrue.

    I don't know who Ryan is but from what's been said I gather you both get on well and are good friends, the fact that he is pissed off at your brother shows that Ryan cares and doesn't want you to kill yourself, just like we don't want that to happen. :hug:
     
  17. SmilePretty

    SmilePretty Staff Alumni

    :sad: this is too hard.
     
  18. The_Discarded

    The_Discarded Staff Alumni

    *sigh*

    I know it's hard. :sad: I wish I knew what advice to give. I know that telling someone is much easier said than done, but you shouldn't (nor anyone) have to live in this.

    But Lucy :no: That's not fair. Your brother is wrong.

    You are beautiful, smart, fun, kind, and a great personality. You are worth all the good you get, and none of the bad.

    Your brother... don't listen to him, hun... he doesn't know... :dry:

    You're not being weak. You're being strong, because you're holding on.

    I'm sorry you're dealing with this. You sure as hell shouldn't have to. :mad:

    None of us want you gone. It'd break my heart, for one. Lean on the people you have. Try and be safe. Try and hang in there. :hug:
     
  19. SmilePretty

    SmilePretty Staff Alumni

    i am trying.
     
  20. The_Discarded

    The_Discarded Staff Alumni

    And you're doing well :hug:
     
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