hey y'all thanks..your comments helped me, they really did...
Shortly after i wrote that, my boyfriend called, and he talked to me, and he came over the next day.
So i basically fell asleep with the stuff just laying on my bed, and by the time i woke up he had already got here and got rid of it...which was good i guess...
i just, dont even know why i feel like this y'know? i mean, nothing happened....things are going pretty good for me i guess, im in college, and i am currently passing everything...i think i am anyways...and i know i have people who love me, but i just still somehow feel like maybe im not good enough?? or do they really love me? maybe they just act like it but they all wish me dead type thing? and then i think it makes no sense, but yet i still feel it and THAT makes no sens....y'know?