just talking .who cares?

Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by pegasusmyth, Jul 24, 2007.

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  1. pegasusmyth

    pegasusmyth Active Member

    Yesterday I saw my acupuncturist and talked with her.she is going to see what resource are available.But she doesn't believe I am suicidal because I love kittens too much!!!Oh well. I was told all my life I could not get pregnant.12 years ago,this august,, I did and was forced to abort it, he went to the casino,while I had it alone,and I never got to return for the follow up..I was never alloweed to grieve or have any feelings at all.this is not an easy time for me,and I realize that few if any people have a clue about me but that too is ok.Life is what it is. Why am I coming here?it's not like I get any responses really.It's just better than talking to myself I guess.I live in rural rural washington state and there are few resources available but I don't think it will matter. every time I think about it I get closer to actually doing it,and I do know a painless way,all it takes is the space and I'll have it soon .He's talking about moveing me into the travel trailer so he can have the house to himself.The trailer has gas.I've been doing risky behavior.I haven't cut or burned in years and I want to so bad ,but if caught I would be severally hurt again ,He has done it before. I'm sure some of you think that it should be real easy to just leave. God what am I doing?reach out get burnt reach out get shunned reach out I am stupid.....Bye guys
     
  2. mfrieler

    mfrieler Active Member

    All I have to say, is you have the power to change things. It might not seem so, but whatever is going wrong, you have the power to change.
     
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