Have just joined & need to post. I've suffered from depression for years & felt suicidal on several occasions. A year ago I was very close to it. This past year I've managed to help myself & improve my life. Funnily enough on Saturday I was driving home thinking to myself that I actually felt properly content & looking forward to the future. That all changed when I got home & received a letter. I don't want to go into all the details but I'm now in huge trouble & ultimately will face bankruptcy amongst other things. There's really no way out of this now, I don't want to kill myself this time but really don't see there is any other option. I guess that why I'm posting, I don't want to die. I suppose I'm hoping there will be something that helps me on here to change my mind, though none of you can actually help what's going to happen to me.