I'm sobbing again. I'm feeling lonely, in an indescribable way. Like, I feel that my body is a brittle shell, and my negative feelings are echoing off the walls. That's the best way to put it I guess. That's it. I'm cutting again. I'm sorry everyone. I'm letting you down. I've been SI free for awhile, but this is becoming too much. I need to open this all up. I've been wrapped up for a long time. I'm going to cut to set myself free. If only I could go deep enough to end it. That would be a relief. To Rob: I still haven't gotten over it. You were the only one that knew all of me. Why the fuck did you leave? It's only fitting. I'll cut to the one song that I had, on the 2 year anniversary of you abandoning me. Winter makes me feel so cold. That should be obvious, but I used to be warm in your arms. But, who am I kidding? We were best friends, but not good enough for you to handle this. I miss you most on winter mornings as we drift we slip through evenings, whoa-oh we drive into the cold and dark with fingers crossed I follow your eyes to avoid from getting lost And all I had was the memory of what was so let's pretend it never mattered to us I hope this message finds you well, Never thought I'd live to tell. Sorry kids. I wasn't meant for this.