What do you do when your family and home life is what is causing you to be depressed and want to die. Today me and my friends ran a 5k race, and I feel so great being around them. We all finished and won trophies, but as we left and went our seperate ways I started to feel the depression come on, because I knew once I got home the darkness would set in. My friends were calling there husbands, girlfriends, boyfriends, etc to tell them they had won, but I had no one to call to tell because my family could have cared less. I am alone. When I enter my house and I am around my family it just feels every bit of life and hope is sucked out of me. I saw on tv the other night someone make the statement that "You become your enviroment", and that is so true. My enviroment, home life is being around people with negative attitudes who are always moping around depressed, and that rubs off on you, and makes you feel the same way. I have no other choice, I am 33 yo and due to job lay offs I am stiil having to be here. I am back in college where I feel I am just wasteing time, but I am still a ways off before I can leave. So what do I do, how do I keep from wanting to die. I would rather die than to feel this way, because litterally it feels like my life and hope are being sucked away eveytime I am home.