Just the way I feel.

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by ForgetMeNot, Aug 15, 2006.

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  1. ForgetMeNot

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    Right now, I could kill myself. I don't even need to give myself reasons at the moment, it just seems like a mercy killing.

    Even if I don't, which I probably won't tonight, because I have too many thoughts and emotions all over the place right now. I'm too much of a quivering wreck (metaphorically) to do that tonight. But anyway, even if I don't, I'll still keep messing up again.

    And it's still going to hurt.

    It's still going to hurt like there are millions of holes in my heart.

    I heard the loveliest phrase once. I don't remember it exactly, but it was along the lines of "when you see them cry, and you want to change the world so it won't hurt them any more."

    I wish I could. Not even just for myself. I wish I could do that.

    I'm sorry. I'm getting tearful. Actually, I can't really read the screen. I think I'm going to go and curl up in bed... I won't sleep, but I'll be there.

    I'm sorry, anybody who reads this. But you won't find those missing peices unless you look.
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