It is 01:31 in the morning so this seems like the place to put this. So as I am sleep deprived enough as it stands... so my mind is kind of... umm floaty... anyway what am I thinking about? Smoking oddly enough. Really I am just looking out at my balcony, and thinking "Hey I wish I could just stand out there". Often times I saw people standing on the balcony smoking. I have stood outside and just stared. That was mildly entertaining, however, extremely boring. So I think, hey I want to smoke. Then I think why do I want to smoke? Then I realized it was my suicidal tendencies. After all what better way to slowly kill myself then to smoke myself to death? My mind goes blank... thoughts if you are awake?