Just Thinking..

Discussion in 'I Have a Question...' started by SaxItUp, Mar 27, 2008.

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  1. SaxItUp

    SaxItUp Guest

    this is

    ...fucking

    horrible.





    i feel

    ...shitty

    all the time.

    ...guilty

    all the time.





    i know

    ...that he suffered.

    ...that i must

    go

    on.

    ...things

    that others

    do not.





    but it's so

    ...sad.

    ...incomprehensible.

    ...unnecessary.









    what i have learned is this:

    all of us who have been there before-- who have sat in front of that huge bottle of pills, the razorblade, who have gripped the car steeringwheel and said "This is it for me..", all of us who have felt so backed into a corner and hurt and scared and desperate that we have come this close to ending our lives...

    we don't understand, even if we think we do, the terrible mess it leaves behind.

    even if we think that our family couldn't possibly blame us for leaving. even if we think that our friends couldn't possibly blame themselves because they know what we were going through. even if we think that nobody would bat an eye...

    we are wrong.



    and i hope you all believe me.



    xoxo
     
  2. Anonetc

    Anonetc Guest

    Not always.

    The true underbelly of society is a cold and sadistic place.
     
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