Kind of sucks that my first post on the forum is this. I officially don't know what else to do. It's not just mental pain, it's physical too, I'm exhausted. I thought going off to college would cure my terrible depression and it's only made it worse. All of my friends are ill with me, not just a few, all of them. I don't do anything right. I'm selfish and narcissistic. I stand for nothing, and I do nothing. I want to die because I don't know how to deal with my problems on my own. I know all of this, it's nothing anyone has to tell me, I already know. I'm tired of crying, tired of longing, I'm tired. My roomate doesn't sleep in our room anymore because she's so tired of me, I can't blame her. I'd leave too if I could. Anxiety cripples me everywhere I go. I can't so much as walk through the door of my dorm without feeling it's affects. I've missed so much class it's not even funny. I don't want to see friends, or exfriends. I'm sick of walking around a campus where I'm so hated. I can't leave my dorm, I'm going to fail my classes, nobody will talk to me, and I'm so... so tired.