i'm just... so... tired... all the time. i'm tired. i'm irritated, and exhausted. and it gets hard for me to breathe. i wish people would just leave me alone, and that i'd be free to just leave. can't they see i'm already dead? therapists and psychiatrists piss me off - i don't think they really have a clue as to what to do about me, and instead of admitting that and being blunt about the matter, they blindly stick to their old mantras and regimens. i'm tired of them. honestly, this sudden tsunami of negativity might be part of some zoloft withdrawal syndrome - I ran out of pills the other day, and I couldn't be bothered to make an appointment to see the doctor, so i kinda just decided to do away with them since they didn't seem to be worth it. even if this were withdrawal though, i'm tired of pills - they're not doing it for me. i'm tired of doctors and professionals who really don't have a clue but like to think they do. all i want to do is hide away and sleep. and it irritates me to no end when people won't let me be. it would destroy them for me to just go out like this, but I persecute them by drawing out my miserable insipid existence. i am so enraged right now. what do you want from me? why do you love me?