So I just set everything up to end it. (Note: you can't say how or what). I sat there trying to get the courage to do it. But I couldn't bring myself to do it. I am not sure if I am afraid it might not work, and things will be even worse, or that it will work. In any case I could not do it. Now what? Wait and try again? Figure out how to go forward? Sit here and day dream? Should I even post this? Why post it. One of the problems is the Prozac it kicking in and screwing up my will to do it. It's actually deadening the pain. Which for all you who believe I should not do it is good. But for those you who believe I should do it, not so good.