i do hate drugs. and i worry to death about people taking them. but lately ive just needed to 'get away' from my myself and have started taking drugs like crazy. ive been taking ectasy pills all through the night when im out, just trying to blank out the world. sometimes i take them until im really sick. and the other morning me and my friend snorted ketamine to death. i just kept taking it until we had run out. in my mind im thinking that i just need to get away from myself and that if i die, thats a bonus. argh. my mind is mad. my body must hate me. i dont know what to do with myself really.