So about 4 months ago I got out of recovery for my eating disorder but I'm alread slipping, because I never got the emotional and mental help I needed. Anyways I feel so bad making people worry about me, my mum has noticed that I don't really eat, I eat one meal a day and even then its not many calories. Everyday now my mum ask me to eat, I feel horrible telling her no, but I just can't make myself eat, I feel horrible at the weight I am now, even though everybody tells me I look good, and better, than when I was at my low weight. A part of me wants to recover but then another part of me feels like this well never go away, I don't know who I am without this, I also hope that this will kill me one day. Sorry I just needed to vent and talk to people that understand.