I don't think I can do this anymore. right now I feel like I'm just waiting. I don't want to be here anymore, antidepressants aren't helping, therapist is retiring so I quit today, what's the point? My home has become a battleground. It finally sank in that I don't matter, no one cares enough to help me or step up. I feel like I've lost everyone and it's just too painful to keep trying. I hate my life and hate myself, tired of pretending so nobody gets upset.