Hi, first post here. Lately I feel like there's no point to anything I do. I feel this way because I keep thinking that I am just working up the courage to end my life. I've suffered from severe social anxiety my entire life with depression off and on, but this is the first time in my life I've felt suicidal. At its worst I know if there was just some magical pill I could take that would end me instantly and painlessly I would take it, but I don't have such a thing and I'm still too scared to try any other way, for now. My social anxiety usually extends to the internet as well, this being the first post I've ever made on any forum because of my fear of being judged and mocked, but this seemed like a great place to open up. I'd welcome any PMs since I am much more comfortable talking one on one.