Not sure what to write here. I'm 22 and from NC. I live in Canada now though, with my boyfriend. Last Sunday, my world was shattered when my ex boyfriend died. We had a complicated relationship, but still loved each other more than anything. He was the person who kept me strong and gave me hope, but now he's gone. I feel like I'm just waiting to die now. I miss him so much and can't stop crying. I know he's alive still in spirit, and I want to be with him again. Three years ago, he tried to kill himself and I saved his life. After that he asked me if I would've joined him soon after, if he would have been successful. I told him I probably would have because I didn't think I could live without him. And now I know I can't.